Friday, October 1, 2010

eating disorder is return


recently something horrible happened . ever since then I've found I just want to eat 
 it makes me feel better . blame it on getting out of the wrong hormones
blame my lect for assigning too many tasks at the end of sem . with a lot of test is still in waiting queue
 and yet,blame my emotions . emotions will drag me to eat more
even my brain stop sending the signal of  'hungry' . but my stomach is too greedy-guts . still wanting a lot more food  . and now I'm addicted to take fast food rather than nasi . i'm not having any kind of nasi since after raya . mcd is my drug  . yea, I know fast food is killing me softly .
 but how could you stop me from eating that maveles french fries,sausages, doublecheese burger, pizzas etc .  me even tried placing my fingers down the throat to induce vomiting, but it fail . you know what ,  to involuntary vomit is so hard unless it happen naturally .

 





  Lova-lova time. active. fit. dark.

  that me when I was at school .

  ignored my darkness skin

  * the photo was taken at school hall, 2006
     with me is ekin



so, I'm facing eating disorder problem right now








11 comments:

Aida Effarina said...

sis, macam sama je kes kita ni. skrg ni sy rasa macam asyik nak makan, makan dan makan. then berat naik nanti mula laa bebel sorang2. haha =p

waa really tak makan nasi lgsg since after raya? tukar body jom.. sy nak transfer segala fats kat badan sy ni dgn sis, boleh? *ayat tak puas hatiiii. pen-jelez! ;)

rindu zaman sekolah. zaman memakai baju putih tudung putih & kain biru. =')

zai said...

aida :

nak transfer fat? fats sis lg bnyk dr aidakot.ahhaha.tuh la makan punya makan, lepas tu menyesal.berazam gila xmau makan, padehal besok harinya makan bnyk lg. tu psl la sis taruk gmbr sekolah dulu.hee

Kyuubi_85 said...

haha. pi ikat perut.. x pyh la nak risau pasal berat bdn ke apa.. nanti nak kawin ke dah kerja bru fikir pasal tu.. ehehe

zai said...

kyuubi :

mana boleh weh, kang nnt badan dah bulat bulat, kang waktu tu dah xleh control nafsu.so baik start dr skrg.ahaha

FaTiN said...

haishh. mc'd is my drug as well :)

yummy!!

erk. Fatin awak kena kurangkan makan mulai sekarang =p

buat zai, makan la selagi boleh makan. bila Allah tarik nikmat makan, nikmat kenyang, baru menyesal. so makan banyak2 k? hehe

zai said...

fatin :

ye betul, kurang kan makan.zai selamat lunch with mcd tadi.everyday.bosan tgk kedai makan.
u said makan banyak2..saya cakap makan setakat kenyang heee

maCy said...

same la kite~~
tapi maCy makang3 pun kering3 juga.. aishhh..


tape2, meh datang mlake na makan ape pn macy kasi meh.. wwawa

hentakbelipat said...

makan mmg xboleh diambil kire sgt..kalau dah rase nk mencekik..hentam aje

zai said...

macy :

case zai in term of terlebih nak makan, asyik nak makan je.makan makan makan

hentakbelipat :

zai dah mencekik smpai tercekik dah.haha

hamzah ian said...

gua dah gemok

zai said...

ian :

lu gemuk, takpe beb.makin buncit makin kayo