eating disorder is return

recently something horrible happened . ever since then I've found I just want to eat 

 it makes me feel better . blame it on getting out of the wrong hormones

blame my lect for assigning too many tasks at the end of sem . with a lot of test is still in waiting queue

 and yet,blame my emotions . emotions will drag me to eat more

even my brain stop sending the signal of  'hungry' . but my stomach is too greedy-guts . still wanting a lot more food  . and now I'm addicted to take fast food rather than nasi . i'm not having any kind of nasi since after raya . mcd is my drug  . yea, I know fast food is killing me softly .

 but how could you stop me from eating that maveles french fries,sausages, doublecheese burger, pizzas etc .  me even tried placing my fingers down the throat to induce vomiting, but it fail . you know what ,  to involuntary vomit is so hard unless it happen naturally .

 

  Lova-lova time. active. fit. dark.

  that me when I was at school .

  ignored my darkness skin

  * the photo was taken at school hall, 2006
     with me is ekin

so, I'm facing eating disorder problem right now